MY FUTURE HAS A FUTURE

Why am I here?

To be lonely and sad?

What's the point of it all?

To reach a new level of “bad”

Bad to hang out with....

Bad to get close

Bad to know more about

You'll just think I'm gross

To think like I do

to be bluer than blue

Just take a pill

it will make a much-better you

But it hasn't worked yet

no matter what I have tried

I've done all I can

No wait..... I just lied

There's one last thing left

for me to complete

To be rid of this pain

to be done, 'cause I'm beat

I wave the white flag

I've lost this long war

My only decision is....

to be here... no more

Suddenly I wake up

to an outlook, anew

It isn't so bad

to have a bad day... or two

Or even a third

a forth, eight or nine

Because I know truly

I'll see the sun shine

There will be an end

to this unending pain

It will stop 'cause I said so

I'll walk straight through the rain

And when I look back

I'll be glad I'm still here

Life IS worth living

When the blues disappear

Every day is not rosy

every night is not repeated

I'll remember the next time

I start thinking I'm defeated

I'm much stronger now

since I've stared down the beast

My future has a future

When my world hasn't ceased