THE LAST SONG

Thirty One

"This is the last song
I’m ever gonna sing about you
The last time I write I can't live without you
Come on melody, set me free
I have to move on
Yeah you’re gone
So this is the last song"

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wq_6W_M69RU

Not only is this the last song on one of my favorite cd's (It REALLY is a GREAT album, with no filler at all). It also speaks to something we have all lived through.



Letting go of a special someone.

At the time, it may seem surreal, or just plain wrong. The future you see so clearly with that person is squashed like an overripe tomato falling off the counter. It doesn't matter if you think the world is perfect when the two of you are together. It doesn't matter if you have an overflowing bowl of love to give, when that person does NOT want to receive it. It doesn't matter if you feel you can help lift this person through the downs and celebrate the ups. They don't WANT you. It's a tough one to accept.

I've lived it.... and it makes you try EVERYTHING to make it work, because you see the reward at the end of the journey is eternal bliss for both of you. And you SHOULD if the person is deserving of all that hope. Sometimes they are familiar right away, like they have been in your life forever. Sometimes, the affection is revealed in small samples, as you get to know the person and what they are about. 

Very few times in life do you get the chance to experience pure joy, and if you DON'T throw a Hail-Mary (or five!), you will always wonder if you did ENOUGH. That if you tried a little HARDER, it may have been enough to change their mind and correct their vision. I did. She didn't agree. No regrets. Just sadness.... and deep disappointment.

Ironically, the pursuit of happiness has the exact opposite effect for YOU when you live out this one way trip. It tears your soul for a moment. It makes you imagine the future in much darker tones. It distorts every emotion you have, warping reality into a strange, unknown, and unrecognizable place. It almost makes you not want to travel again.... Not today. Not tomorrow. Not next year.


Almost....