MOTHER'S DAY 2019

What does one do when a holiday rolls around and you know Mom doesn't know or understand anything about it?

For ME on THIS Mother's Day, I can easily be thankful.

Despite the messes to clean up if I dont wake her up every 4 hours to go to the bathroom.

Despite her wanting to leave the house to go home.

Despite her unending desire to always go for a ride.

Despite her having occassional seizures for no reason and nothing can be done about it.

Despite her 24/7 care making it a challenge at times to be happy and positive about a future unknown.

Despite her repeated questions that have already been answered again and again.

I can be thankful because I lived her misery with a bad spouse. I lived her highs and many lows of previous husband who was clearly manic depressive. I lived her difficulties of being a single parent with low income and low expectations for change.

She was successful at work, gaining respect from anyone who paid attention. She never talked bad about my biological father who she could have rightfully just told the truth. It would have shown his lack of character. She showed the love of others without expecting it in return.

She found happiness in forgetting all the pain and suffering through her life. She can laugh and smile and be a bright light to strangers.

It WOULD be nice if she could just be my Mom again... but its ok. She can't but I still REMEMBER.