It's amazing what you find when you clean out the closets! I found this last night while I was packing. It was written years ago and reminds me of unrealized hopes and dreams...
The days have passed
but still...
my heart feels empty
You filled a void
I didn't know I had
My life was fine
the way it was
The job, the tasks
the challenge of it all
kept my mind
from knowing what it's missing
You changed all that
with just a smile
Your presence like
a shower of joy
The instant comfort
and relaxed fit
of what
for a second, was "us"
turned to rubble
the wall around me I built
To keep you out
if you ever appeared
But.....
I knew I would fall
to your mesmerizing ways
without trying you cleared the cloud
that was my life
For once I could see
how much more my life could be
with you in it
my days were bright
The thought of "us" still open
to the idea maybe
you were mine
My nights were brighter still
If you were there, just sleeping
laying so beautifully
by my side
I could stare for hours
at your gorgeous face
seeing a future roll by
without realizing
you had my soul
Ready to be yours
If you would have me
Hoping you did
Afraid you would
Making love
felt so alive and real
from head to toe
I wanted to know it all
I can't imagine
looking back I could be so wrong
and not sense that
you were not really there
That you could walk away
from "us" so easy
the "feels right" obviously
parting ways with you
And now alone
I see and feel
the other side of joy
the pain... the emptiness
Reserved for those of us
left behind
the sadness of not knowing
exactly what went wrong
When it all felt so right
I guess it was
just me
that saw and felt that way
I'm not sure
the point of it all
except to say
Thank You...
For letting me see
that, if only for an instant,
I could be
so very very happy
and see
how much more my life can be
with
someone special in it...
Monday, February 20, 2012
THANK YOU
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Love this too!
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