ERASED MEMORIES

I was reminded the other night of something that happened with an ex long ago. It was significant enough that I can't imagine how I forgot all about it???? I won't go into details....

For those of you who know me and fainted, welcome back. Yes, I DO occasionally withhold a few secrets....

As I was reliving this painful moment, I was struck by how different I am now, as compared to the stupid, naive, insecure young man of the 80's. A much-improved version for sure.

If the same event happened now, I'm sure I wouldn't even react. Turn-the-page, round-the-corner, use whatever cliche you have laying around and insert here. Life has taught me many things, some obviously learned despite my kicking and screaming. The point is, like may of us, we learn that the awful days are not as awful as they seem to be in the moment.

Life goes on and you either hitch a ride and enjoy or stay home, sit in the dark, and talk yourself crazy. I tried the stay-home approach and I do NOT recommend it to anyone!

Why do I think I could handle this particular relationship adversity? Because I don't care? I don't know.... Is it because I know the outcome? I don't know.... They say that you get older and wiser. Obviously, not in THIS case with me....

Can I imagine someone so special, so close, so important to me that words would not describe how I feel, and by some miracle, they feel the same?

No....

Now THERE is a memory I would like to erase....