I THOUGHT YOU WOULD BE....

The emptiness is numbing
The numbing feeds the 
despair that hovers 
like a bad dream

Hoping I wake 
and find you here
But as hard as I look
you are not

Things may go on 
but not as before
The sun will come up
It's light not quite the same
as when you lit my desires

To be a better man
a better me for you
Because you would be
my dream come true

A late night vision 
of what I thought impossible
Until you amazed and dazzled
Without even trying at all

Is it over and done? 
Are you lost to the void?
I'll go back to sleep 
and keep the dream alive

...if that's all I have of
the life I wanted with you
The "us" that COULD be
replaced by the reality 

That there is no "We"
Only a loneliness that 
doesn't feel as it should
when I thought you would be...

....mine