REMINDERS OF WHEN

A friend recently brought back some dusty, fading memories of the things I miss most when not in my singlenessosity.....


I miss -


….. waking up with my arms still wrapped around her

….. the end-of-the-night kiss that sends a jolt from the tip of my tongue to the tips of my toes, among other places!

….. reaching out to hold her hand as we walk to nowhere specific

….. my stare reaching her smiling eyes

….. feeling special for no particular reason

….. knowing someone is out in the void and quite possibly thinking of me

….. planning a day that we will both look forward to spending together

….. not feeling so alone, even if no one is around at the moment

….. the look for surprise on her face when she realizes she is REALLY ready for round 2... and round 3.....

….. the feeling of deep affection that only comes from genuine attraction, not animal urges

….. a meal tasting so much better, just because the company I am keeping is someone special

….. the moment we smile at each other, knowing that we are both as happy as we can be

….. being with that magical person that makes everyone else invisible

….. not having any doubts how and why she feels the way she feels

….. crossing a fantasy off the list I didn't even know I had

….. when “doing nothing” was the best part of the week, because SHE was there

….. a Sunday nap in the early afternoon with the one person I dream about

..... when "doing it" was truly making love

….. having good news and the first person I want to tell is her

….. finding it impossible to imagine my life without her

….. feeling like I won the lottery, because she is with ME

….. caring enough about someone that I care about tomorrow

….. finding my perfect place in the universe

….. not needing a date with a porn princess

….. having a hard time imagining my existence before she came around


I haven't felt many of these in a long, long time, yet I still hope, I still dream, I still know she is there, somewhere....


….. just not here and not now.