MOM: MARCH 2018

The good thing about March is that it is usually beginning to get more and more like spring. It's also Mom's birthday month, and one that we usually didn't celebrate much, even when she was aware of the day. 

She isn't aware of much for very long these days. 

She is beginning to forget things from just a few minutes previous. She is making up more words because she can't find the ones needed. She has very few things she can actually do without supervision. Even the trash that she has taken care of for a long time, she sometimes questions where it goes. 

And yet....

She is more affectionate than ever. Even to strangers. 

She tells people she loves them, as she sees only the good things in a person first. She always tries to find a reason to smile... and succeeds quite often. 

Her energy level fluctuates, as it can be a good day and she wants to stay up late, or she could be ready for bed at 6. I have to make sure she doesn't overdo herself in the morning and afternoon, and working has a way of entertaining and limiting what she has to do. Plus she enjoys the rides. 

One of the crazy things that happened lately was her saying my NAME the other day. I almost ran off the road! I haven't heard her say my name in years.  It reminded me of how annoyed I was when she recalled the DOG's name and couldn't bring up mine. That seems so long ago now. 

Our world has shrunk and I am not able to step out for very long. Accepting this wasn't that hard, as not much was going on anyways. My hope of having a social life has evaporated into the realities of our days and the constant decline that continues to surprise. 

I still wouldn't trade this time for much anything. Seeing her happy and laughing is all I need to keep me going. The memories that she can't have, I will, for as long as I'm able.