ME in 2024

 

Well, it seems the mood to write doesn't happen as often as it used to. It's prolly because I don't have much to report. Life is kind of repetitious, which I used to dislike with a passion. Mom seems to thrive on a routine, so we just routinely go thru our day and enjoy it. 

While I have nothing to complain about, I certainly won't admit everything is perfect. The aches and pains are spreading, the weight is not coming off as fast as in the past because the aches and pains are spreading. I have time to myself since Mom is sleeping so much these days, but the desire and ability to get some fun things done just isn't there. 

It's NOT because of depression or anything like that. My mental state is as strong as it's ever been. Years of self-examination have really helped in that department. I know that taking care of Mom has helped me realize what is truly important these days, and also in dealing with any issues that pop up. 

It's car show season, and I have to admit, I have ZERO motivation to attend any. Why? I'm sure it's more than one reason, but the biggest reason is that I am OK with just staying home. I have my online interests, my day-dreaming, and reading to get me thru. I wish I had some relevant writing to do. I wish I could really get into some low-impact exercises. I wish the lottery would FINALLY pick the right numbers! 

Interesting thing about my lottery dreams. There is going to come a point in the near future where I will stop playing. It has been therapeutic to escape the reality of life these past few years. Dreaming of a time where I could do all the things I thought were out of reach. Cars, travel, helping other, meeting new people, things like that. Figuring out how I would spend the money has been quite entertaining. Digging in deep what would be the best way to uplift folks went in many directions. Travel plans were all over the world. Homes in different parts of the country also distracted from any negativity that might creep in. 

The reality is, I'm going to be 60 in a few days. That doesn't even sound right. How could I be OLD already???? 

Anyways....

I know if the arthritis isn't something I can minimize, many of the plans I had when younger will never be realized, even if I could afford it. I hold out hope that there is SOMETHING I can do to improve with enough funds. If not, the list of "To-do" things gets remarkably short. 

It gets harder and harder to work on a car. It is impossible to walk miles like I used to do without thinking. Even driving long distances is a chore that I don't look forward to. 

But....

I still enjoy learning new things. I still look forward to reading the next good book. I still love making plans, even if they aren't going to happen. I still smile watching a good movie. I don't get down, or mopey for long periods of time any more. I battled that demon for decades, but it is defeated. No medication required. 

I feel like I am the best ME that I have ever been. It's actually a good feeling.... 

What's next? 

Hopefully something cool to write about...